1 post tagged “hate”

When life gives you lemons they tell you to make lemon aid but what do you do when life makes you sick? God, I hate this. My head feels like it is going to , fall off. The head-ake I have right now , is unbelievable . I used to get head-akes in grade four. And they weren’t fun then and they aren’t fun now . It feels like there is a little dude in my head yoodling or hitting me with a hammer. If you know this feeling then you know how I feel. I have three brothers too , and they all are a pain in the ass. They don’t care how , I feel they care all about them selves. They are all younger then me so , I guess that is the point. But still they should care a little , you think? So I think I am getting a head cold , or a throat infection because my little brother Alex has it so I bet I will get it just because I am always getting the bad luck around here , yeah know? ( I do).

Soccer , is well coming to be my life. Guess who made the team at school? Me , yes I am and was pumped. I am starting to get sore from all the push ups , crunches and everything. These starting work outs make me so sore. Some of them are so werid I don’t even think Arnold Swarwnegga would know. My coach is cool though and funny. Even though it is the hardest team in the school , I am doing farely well. My schedule for soccer , is well packed. I am actually telling the truth. Here it is:

• Monday : Practice on the turf field
• Tuesday: Game home or away
• Wednsday: Practice at the school
• Thursday: Game home or away
• Friday,Satuday & Sunday : Practice at home kicking soccer ball around

So , well everyday I have something after school or in school , having to do with soccer. But I love it , and I am getting in the greatest shape so I don’t really care. All , I can say is hopefully soccer doesn’t take a hit with my school work ( eek speaking of school work I will have to work on that soon). School work has been gaining alot of work too. I wished I was back on summer vacation too. Because the work is piling up every day. Oh and another thing that is piling up is my student fees argh , It is another reason why I need a job. Look at the fees :

• Industrial Arts (wooding working , welding , photography ) 25 dollars
• Band ( playing my clarinet ) 72 dollars
• Student Fees (student stuff needed) 30 dollars
• Soccer ( uniform and equipment ) 40 dollars

So as you can see school is making me want to win the lottery. Because my parents are refusing to pay for this stuff . So I may have to quit a couple of things ( oh fuck no! ) . It better not be soccer or band , or industrial arts . Oops , thats all of them.

I deffinatly need a job then , because I want a mac book pro , ipod nano , clothes from American Eagle , A & F , Gap , Billabong , Old Navy, & Other places my parents aren’t really letting themselves buy. Oh well maybe I will get my way and get something who knows .But I will need a job. Even if I can get like maybe 3 shifts or even 2 a week. I will be happy , if you know what I mean.

By the way : Hope everyone loves my new theme on violentbones.net It is the best thing that I made yet , I think it features Bianca’s beautiful vexel. Bianca from rockable.de if your all wondering. Oh , and my site is here to stay and if it doesn’t look my up at definesuicide.vox.com all my posts end up there some time.